No Sex in the City

In the beginning there was love. As pure and evangelic as a ray of light. In the beginning it was not a laughable matter. Not to say that it is today, but it was different back then. Men actually courted women. Women actually held back. Men were actually interested in more than your ASSets. Then again, they weren't as progressive as we were. They were taught on family values. The majority of generation X was raised on individual values. "Be your own person." Where did it all go...?

Today love is often found before, during, or after sex...on birthday's...Christmas (if the gift is decent.) Now, truth be told, people who live by that theory are still getting love five more times than I, but still....when did it stop being so serious?

I remember going on a date with a guy in high school...ugh, Mark. We had only been about fifteen minutes into the date when he tried humping my leg...I suppose I can see this from two standpoints. One, he was just horny. Hell, we were fifteen. What did I expect? Two, I was looking really good and he couldn't just help himself. Considering how I looked in high school, I'm going to go with number one. Again, when it did stop being so serious?

HOWEVER. Was it ever really serious?

From what I know about most kids from my generation is that sex is almost a must on the first date. Now, dates have always been considered to be like interviews, an all inclusive questionnaire. Then later, after he's paid for dinner and a movie and popcorn and candy...the physical part of the interview comes into play. If you suck then there will be no second date. Great. As if there isn't enough pressure for first dates anyway.

My entire diatribe comes from inexperience. Once I have sex I might just delete this entry and rewrite one entitled "Lesson Learned..." But still. There has to be more than this. There has to be a bigger and better reason why people do this day in and day out. This "something" has to go beyond great expectations and desperation and...hope. It has to be more than faith that THE ONE is out there. There has to be a bigger picture.

Perhaps, just maybe, "the bigger picture" is why we do it....